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Eleanor, Lila, and Cricket in Lincoln Park

These guys! Amid all the rain we have had lately, Eleanor, Lila, Sarah, Eric, their adorable pup, Cricket, and I lucked out with a gorgeous morning to hang out together in Lincoln Park last Saturday. It’s always a pleasure to see this family, and I know I say it every year, but I can’t believe how much the girls have grown since last year! Eleanor, you’re just about as tall as I am now, and Lila, you’re not far off! I guess I’ll bring my step-stool for next year’s pics. I love Eleanor’s new haircut, and all of Lila’s sassy poses and willingness to model. They did a lovely job (you too, Cricket!), as always, and I loved catching up with everyone. Thanks again for another great time, Sarah and Eric!



Baby Zaya

I love this family so much! They were lovely, inside and out. Eliza, Shahin, and I spent our entire session in my studio last week ohhhhhing and ahhhhhhhing over baby Zaya…and can you blame us? She’s such a beauty, and a total top model. Check out those smiles! I just couldn’t get enough of her sweetness, and loved capturing the joy and wonder of her parents when they snuggled her. Thanks so much for stopping by, Eliza and Shahin! Congratulations again on your new addition. It was wonderful to meet you three.


Rose and Charlie

It’s Rose and Charlie time! We had the best day to explore Independence Grove together a few weekends ago. And look at those smiles! Charlie and Rose…you rock! We had a lot of laughs as we ran and played and goofed around together. I love this family! It was great to catch up with you Elizabeth and Jim…thanks for a wonderful time.



Maura, Fiona, and Brenna Explore Promatory Point

I hadn’t been out to Promatory Point for a few years, and had forgotten how awesome it was. I am so glad that Eileen thought to take her family’s photos there this year! We had a beautiful morning to chum around this great South Shore spot together. I loved catching up with Maura, Fiona, and Brenna and hearing their latest. Maura and Fiona had just completed the kids’ marathon the day before, and I was beyond impressed with all three girls’ bike riding abilities. Brenna showed off her extremely loose tooth, and her mad jump-roping skills. I can’t get enough of this family. They are just the sweetest. It was wonderful to see you all again!

Five Years

The now-familiar feelings are here again: dread, panic, sadness. Dulled by each passing year, but they still showed up. Today, the fifth anniversary of the day Hannah died, is different from the four other September 4ths, though. It’s ordinary. Mike has work, Eloise has school then tap, Mae has swim, our garage door is being replaced. And that feels weird.

For the past four years, on September 4th, Mike and I have stuck together like glue. We could, because for the past four years, Hannah’s anniversary has fallen over the holiday weekend. I buy her flowers. I blog (because it’s always therapeutic for me to pull the thoughts out of my heart and throw them out into cosmos), and then we “go dark.” Try to hide in a crowd somewhere…we take her sisters to the zoo or aquarium, or spend the day together outside, as I always feel close to Hannah in the fresh air. We honor her with family time.

Mike and I think about Hannah every single day. We have ways that we honor and celebrate her as a family. But September 4th is just bad. It’s not a day to celebrate. It’s an anniversary, not a birthday, and a heavy one, at that. A day when our forever grief visits again. A day that will always hold power over us. A day we don’t want to forget, but don’t want to dwell on, either.

So, I bought her flowers. I wrote my blog.  And then, in a major effort not to get sucked into a vortex of flashbacks and despair, I will stay distracted with everyday life until the day is done and I can breathe again. Safe for another year.

This weekend, we will all participate in a 5K for GLASA in Hannah’s memory. On that day, one not overflowing with sadness, we can honor our amazing, strong baby, and the ways she has enriched our lives, shaped our perspectives, and changed us all for the better.

We love you so much, Hannah Felicity.